but, my trainer said that i needed to keep in mind that, as long as i kept at it, there would never be another day like the last few days. that friday morning was the worst it would ever be, as my poor sedentary body was shocked out of its slumber. that in a very real sense, it was all downhill from here.
i didnt really believe it. but, im commited.
i think my trainer was a little bit surprised. i KNOW he was surprised to see me in the gym doing cardio saturday, but even after that i think he half-way expected me to bail on the resistance training on sunday. he was wrong. i was EAGER. i had passed through the misery of the last few days, i knew the pain and had its measure. i knew i was capable of facing it again a thousand times if thats what it took. so i threw myself into it with a will, and had an even more productive session than the last time.
and the best part? much to my amazement, IM NOT IN PAIN! sure, im a little bit sore in spots, and was a little stiff in others when i rolled out of bed this morning, but its a mere irritant in comparison to what i went through after the first resistance session. personally, i dont understand how thats possible, but hey, ill take it.
ive got to say, i really enjoy the weight training a lot more than the cardio. the cardio bores the shit out of me, its nothing more than the physical-fitness equivilent of MMO-grinding. unfortunately, they tell me that doing the weights too much or too often doesnt produce any real benefit and can do a good bit of harm so... i guess ill just have to pace myself, filling the time inbetween with the soul-sucking cardio drudgery.
but thats ok, i can do that. because im feeling better than ive felt in a long, LONG time. not just physically, but in every aspect. as nina simone said,
Birds flyin' high you know how I feel
Sun in the sky you know how I feel
Breeze driftin' on by you know how I feel
Its a new dawn, its a new day, its a new life for me
yeah, its a new dawn its a new day its a new life for me ooooooooh
AND I'M FEELING GOOD